Blessings in Disguise

We pray for blessings, we pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
And all the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love us way too much to give us lesser things

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom, Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your word is not enough
And all the while, You hear each desperate plea
And long that we’d have faith to believe

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

When friends betray us
When darkness seems to win
We know that pain reminds this heart
That this is not,
This is not our home
It’s not our home

‘Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

There are so many times since becoming an Army Wife that I have cried out to God. That I have cried my eyes out because I just don’t understand why things have to be the way they are. Why do my husband and I have to be apart so often? Why are things with promotion so incredibly frustrating? Why does it hurt so much when he is away? In those moments I tend to forget that God has a plan for us. That if I believe God brought Ben and I together so many years ago, that if I believe that God wanted Ben to join the Army, that it must mean that God wanted me to be an Army wife. That all of this is our path. And that maybe, like the song says, our blessings come through rain drops, my healing comes through tears and a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know he is near.

And when I can realize this. When I can feel the peace of Jesus. When I remember that he is there through it all, I get through the next big thing. I am able to go on and be stronger through it all. The next day after those tearful nights are the really good days. They are the days where I feel I can get through anything. Those are the days I feel the strongest.