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When He is Away, I Miss His Jokes

When he is away…

Army Couple

I miss his jokes.

I miss seeing him make coffee.

I miss being able to talk to him about all the silly stuff.

I miss watching movies together after the boys go to bed.

I miss him laughing at the silly stuff our boys say.

I miss the joy I feel when I come home and see he is home from work early…especially on a Friday afternoon.

I miss hogging all the covers.

I miss being able to run to Target for an hour all by myself on a Sunday afternoon.

I miss driving through a Starbucks and getting coffee together.

I miss hearing the garage door open knowing that means he must be home.

I miss asking him what he wants for dinner.

I miss going to church all together.

I miss watching the kids play together.

Whenever he is gone there is just a part of me that is never 100% okay with it, even if each day doesn’t seem too bad. Sometimes it is the little things, the everyday things that I miss the most. The memories I get from a coffee cup or a pair of shoes. It’s the daily chit-chat that seems the hardest to do without.

This time he won’t be gone too long and I have more than enough to keep me busy but it reminds me that a deployment is coming. It reminds me that before too long I will have to get used to this for months and months. That I will have to get back into deployment mode and that makes me sad. That I will not only miss all this stuff but he will also be in a dangerous place. That he won’t just be in a different state, that he will be on the other side of the world from us.

I try not to think about that. The deployment hasn’t started yet but the pre-deployment period has started and I need to accept it. I need to prepare myself for the rest of this year.

I tell myself that 9 months isn’t too long. It seems like we just got back from our California trip and that was 6 months ago. But still, it is knowing how much I will miss that makes me sad.

On the other hand, knowing that being apart will make us stronger is comforting. Knowing that at the end of it all we will have another wonderful homecoming is a nice thought. Knowing that we have been through much worse makes me feel better.

But how does one really prepare for such a long time without the person they love the most? How do you get used to the idea that you have to say goodbye?  A lot of people say that deployments don’t get any easier, and they don’t. They are all different and we are at different stages when we go through them.

I just hope and pray that this deployment isn’t too horrible. That it goes by quickly and that before we know it, he will be home with us again. Standing on this side of the deployment isn’t very fun but time moves on and no deployment lasts forever.

Are you in a pre-deployment season too?

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  1. <3 I am missing a lot of those things too.
    Erika recently posted..The Long and Short of It

  2. This post made me cry :( Our deployment isn’t for a while, but we know it’s coming. When he deployed the first time, I missed the sound of the tea pot whistling with his morning tea. I missed it so much, that I taught myself to drink tea in his place. Prayers to you and your family!!!

  3. This post brought up so many raw emotions for me especially with a possible deployment on the horizon. It’s true, they don’t ever get easier. Just know that you’re not alone! ((Hugs))

  4. <3

  5. Having just lost my husband two months ago I know a lot about what goodbyes feel like. I am so sorry you’re having to experience so many, and with children too. Still, you must be so very proud of the man you’re married too. I don’t know him but I am so PROUD of the man he is, the husband and father he is. And you? You’ve got such courage, and I know it hasn’t come easily, that you have to dig down deep for it, have to exercise your faith and trust in the love you two have. Please know that I will keep your husband and family in prayer. I am proud of you too. You have a lot to be proud of. God bless you.
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  6. I don’t think they get any easier, but I do think that, with each one, you learn how to handle them and yourself better. thinking about you and i hope you power through your upcoming deployment!

  7. Aww I love this. I miss all those things too and more. We are in a weird pre-deployment season as we are waiting to hear if my husband has asthma or not and if his deployment will be cancelled because of it. It’s hard not knowing what’s going to happen. But I definitely agree with Jessica above, I don’t think it gets any easier, but you figure it out as each one comes and you take it in stride.
    Kathryn recently posted..Deployment Idea 7# – Scrapper’s Block of Love & Encouragement

  8. I can’t imagine how you do what you do. I almost started crying as I read your post tonight. I miss all those little things when my husband is gone for the day or a weekend. It must be super hard to have to go through this for months on end. I’ll pray for you as you live day by day with your sweet hubby far away. You are an amazing woman of God. Thank-you for your sacrifice so that your husband can protect our country. Thank-you Ben for being willing to serve our nation. We appreciate it. I appreciate it!!

  9. My fiance left 2 days ago for Afghanistan for a 8 month deployment. This is my first one and I am so happy you have this blog. I started a blog when he left for 4 weeks for his pre-deployment training, than when he got back from it I fell off the rocker with it since I wanted to spend evey minute I wasnt working with him. And well now I think its time to get back to my blog. But i love your blog and find it so helpful!

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