My youngest son is over two now. I want to lose the rest of the weight I gained with him. Every pregnancy I was 10lbs heavier than I was the pregnancy before. After baby #2 I was able to lose it all and then some. I slowly gained some of it back and now I am wanting to lose about 30lbs.
When I was a child I was always super thin. Then I turned 12 and gained some weight. At 14 I started on the school swim team and didn’t have to worry much during high school. I swam 1.5 hours everyday so I could pretty much eat whatever I wanted to. I would love to start swimming again but finding the details of setting that up kinda hard right now.
I have tried running, didn’t really work for me. Walking does but I am out of the routine right now. When I watch what I eat I can lose weight. Holidays and birthdays trip me up. I think, “Oh it is my birthday, I can have cake.” And I don’t want to deny myself cake on my birthday but it can mess up a good eating plan. I go to a potluck and tell myself it is okay to have more than two brownies because it is a potluck. But then I find myself doing that once a week. It makes me get back into the habit of eating too much crap.
I started tracking what I was eating around the 1st of this month and as of last week lost 4lbs. I am sure I gained a little bit back this past week but today is a new day!
I don’t want to give up any one food. I like the idea of everything in moderation. I know I can’t keep certain things in my house because they are just too tempting for me. And even if I am pretty good at staying away from them, if I have a bad day I can easily talk myself into it.
Since I did lose weight back in 2009 and then put a lot of it back on, I need to do something that works for the rest of my life. I need to stop rewarding myself with food. I need to get out of the mindset that a bowl of ice cream will make me miss my husband less or make the kids seem less stressful. Ice cream is yummy and has its place but I don’t want it to take on that role for me anymore.
I have a pile of jeans from 2009 that I really want to fit back into. Part of me wants to just donate them but I fear if I get rid of them I will be just assuming I will never be able to fit into them again.
I don’t need my old body back. I have had three children and I just don’t know if that would even be possible. I am never going to be one of those people that works out for three hours a day. Not while I have a husband who works a lot, little kids and a home business. I do want to wear a smaller size, have more energy and see the numbers a little less when I step on the scale. I know I can do it. I have done it before, I can do it again.
Are you trying to lose weight this year? Are you on Myfitnesspal? Join me there if you want 🙂
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