Ben has been home for over a week now. I was noticing that things are getting back to normal around here.
When he first got home I got sick with the flu. It was not fun and made me feel very off anyway. Add to that adding back a new person who hadn’t been around for six months. I told Ben that it felt like I had made a little hole for myself to survive the deployment. Now that he was home I was climbing out of that hole but it was hard to know how to really function and get back to normal.
Just little things like extra laundry, extra food and not being the one to make every little decision were a little hard to get used to. I had been living in a certain way just to get through each day and now I don’t have to do that anymore. It is a change and one that can take some time.
However, now that he has been home over a week all of that feels more normal again and the way it is supposed to be. It is amazing to me that just a few days can make such a difference.
Now we are in that period of time between Christmas and New Years. Ben has a few days off and we are enjoying being a family of five again. The boys have all enjoyed having him home and getting back to a normal family unit.
2013 pretty much stunk. From the first part of the year when Ben went to JRTC to the awful deployment. Even when he was home the first part of the year, I still knew a deployment could happen. Then we went through the back and forth dance of it he was really going to leave or not. All of that is over. And because all of that is over, I am feeling a peace I have not felt for a while. It’s a good feeling.
Even though we have a lot to work out, our days as an Army family are numbered. I am not even really counting down to that because it does make me nervous and quite frankly I am sick of counting down to things. I just want to live and not let it ruin what could be a great year. I am sure everything will work out for us, even if we can’t see exactly how right at this moment.
I did tense up a little when my husband told me that there is already talk about the next deployment. It does not even affect us at all and still I cringe. When will these deployments let up for people? It makes me so sad to think about. To think that if he was staying in we would be looking at preparing for deployment #5 in 2014. That is way too much for our little family and just confirms the decision about getting out of the Army.
I feel like I have so much to do as 2014 is only a couple of days a week. This is going to be the year that things change for us and I am going into it with a positive attitude.