To the friends I don’t talk to anymore…
Before social media got as big as it did, if someone moved away, most likely you lost touch with them. You might have written letters, it just depended on the personality of your friend and how often you would write to each other. Today, with places like Facebook, you can continue to talk to your friends daily, even if they live in a different part of the world. However, there are people who shy away from social media or people you just have not connected with yet. Friends that you used to spend so much time with are now just a memory to you. I have several of these friends. People I was so close to, that I laughed with, dreamed with and whom I no longer talk with.
This is to them
To the friends I don’t talk to anymore…
I still think of you often. Little things remind me of you. I remember the long talks we had in between classes. I remember us dreaming about our future husbands and children together. I wonder if you are married and if you are happy. I wonder if you did have those four kids you had talked about having or if you decided to live a childfree life. I wonder if you were able to achieve your career dreams or if you are still trying to figure all that out like I am. I wonder if you are still close with your family and I wonder what your brothers and sisters are up to. I remember your little sister bugging us and just wanting to be a part of things. I know she would be turning 30 this year and I think of her when I think of you. I think about how we said we would all buy houses on the same street and that at 16 that was a silly dream. I think about how we told each other all about which boy we were crushing on and how you really have no idea how amazing the man I married is because I met him after we parted ways.
Time moves on and we leave behind our old friendships for new ones but that doesn’t mean I have forgotten about you. I still think about the times we shared. The laughs we had and how we always assumed we would be close. But something happened along the way. Maybe it was because I got married first or because you moved away from the place we first met so I can’t even run into you when I visit home. Maybe you were just meant to be my friend for a season and for a reason but as 30-somethings we are just too different to be close anymore.
So to you, my friends, I will never forget what we had. You hold a special place in my heart and I hope you are happy with whatever road life has taken you on. I do hope we will see each other again someday but I know that life might not make that possible. So I look through my scrapbooks and remember what we had and remember that it was special.
