I walk into my living room, and it is there. The camo. The color of the military.
Normally, this all lives in other parts of the house, put away, until it is needed. But today, I can see his military gear, and I know what that means.
The camo in my living room means he is getting ready to go. To serve. To train. To fight.
The camo in my living room means that I won’t be able to see him for a while. That he will be living somewhere else. That it is time for him to go.
Sometimes the camo means he is leaving for a little while, and that isn’t quite so bad.
Sometimes the camo means he is leaving for way too long, and my heart breaks a little when I think about what that means.
And then we see the camo in the living room…
And we are reminded of what they signed up for, and what their purpose is.
And if we have been through this before, we are reminded about the lonely nights, the heartfelt goodbyes, and the long awaited homecomings.
We know we can get through what is ahead, although sometimes, we lose sight of that.
And even if we know we can get through any time apart, that doesn’t make saying goodbye any easier.
As we see them prepare for whatever is ahead, we wonder why we choose this road. Why did we marry a soldier? Why did we stand by when they signed those papers?
And as we watch our spouse packing things up, we know.
We know that this is who they are, and this is what they feel called to do. And we know that we feel called to them and for that, we know we can get through this challenge too.
As military spouse, we can go through periods of time when life just feels a little too hard. When we wish things were a little different, or that we had made different choices.
As we watch them and see that camo in our living rooms, we feel a pride in our spouse that has chosen this road. And that even if watching them leave is difficult, we can stand by them as they go.
We know that we don’t have to go through all of this alone, other military spouses are doing the exact same thing.
We know we can help other spouses through this, because we have been there before.
We know that in the end, there is no other person we would rather be with, military and all.
So to those of you who also see camo in your living room during this season, you got this.
Even if the days are long…
Even if the tears keep coming…
Even if it seems like too much…
Because you are a military spouse, and you have the strength to handle the difficulties and challenges this life brings.
If you are getting ready to say goodbye, whether for just a few weeks or a lot longer, please visit the rest of my deployment blog posts, and know you are not alone.